-1.8 Pounds

Last Monday I was 185.4 pounds and today I'm 183.6, I'm hoping I'm retaining some water from the whole fun girl part of the month. I know I shouldnt' be disappointed because 1.8 pounds in a week is GREAT and close to the max for a healthy weightloss; but, I am. I've been losing at least 2 pounds a week and I was hoping that it wouldn't slow down already. Although I really cannot complain, I've lost 15 pounds since I started this on April 17th. That's an average of 3 pounds a week. I'm hoping to lose another 5 by June 17th (which I think is totally do-able) which will still keep me in my goal of 10 pounds a month.

I need to stop neglecting this blog but lately I've been feeling like this is a more private journey and I don't really have a whole lot to say. Plus, it's hard to feel motivated to write anything when nobody reads it. But it's hard to have people read it when I don't tell them about it. LOL! Oh well.

I just tried on the bra/panties I got that motivated me to start this whole journey again. They still don't fit. The undies are close but not quite. The bra, pretty much the same. I think I'll try again when I hit 174 pounds.

Curves is closed today so I'll go tomorrow. My goal is to get there 5 times this week Tuesday-Saturday. I don't see why I won't be able to do that.

I'll try to check in tomorrow or Wednesday. An email group I'm on is doing a "Biggest Loser" and the weigh-ins for that group are Wednesday. I admit it, I weigh every morning, but having official weigh-ins for WW on Monday and then for Biggest Loser on Wednesday helps me stay on track because I don't say "screw it" on Monday and have a bad day since I know I have to report my weight again on Wednesday.

Hopefully some of the water-weight will be gone by Wednesday. Last Wednesday I was 184.4; so, it would be nice to be down to at least a little bit more so that weigh-in reflects a decent drop in weight. Because as it stands right now I'm only down 0.8 pounds since last Wednesday.

I'll keep you updated.

Good Week

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Curves & New Shoes

I went to Curves today for my first workout. The lady there that was showing me all the equipment was really nice. It's not rocket science but I appreciated her input. One cool thing about Curves is that you switch machines every 30 seconds so you're never on any one thing for too long. I like that. Another nifty thing is that every 5 minutes (that's my estimate) they have you pause for a few seconds and check your heart rate. Mine got up to about 85% and that made the lady nervous so she told me to back down. She said after I've worked out for a while it is fine but not to leave about 75-80% until I've been working out for a while.

I guess that's fine, I don't really care right now. I technically haven't worked out for probably close to 6-8 weeks so it's better to not jump right into the deep end of the pool. I have two more workout sessions with the people there so they verify I do everything right and then I'm on my own.

I haven't decided what I'm going to do when my 30 days here are up. I think Curves seems really cool for someone who is new to working out, is older, or needs to drop some weight (like me) but I think that after about 6 months I'm going to hit my ceiling with what they can offer. I just don't see them helping me tone up or anything like that. So I'm torn because if I join up after this 30 day trial they make you sign a 1 year contract. I don't think I'll be working out there in a year. Well, let me rephrase that, I don't think that working out there in a year will be nearly as beneficial to me as it is right now. I think I'll need a more traditional weight-lifting program to tone up and stuff. So I'm torn. It's good cardio, don't get me wrong, and even in a year I'll need that but it just seems silly to pay for Curves at that point when I can go to the gym at the University for free.

I don't go now because I'm way too intimidated by the thin 20 year old girls who look at me like I'm a huge fat slob. But, by the time school starts, I'm hoping to be around 150 and while I'll still look like a big fat slob to them, I won't be nearly as bad as I am now so maybe I won't be so embarassed. And, honestly, by Christmas I'd like to be at goal weight.

Anyways, I got myself some new shoes because I realized today that my tennis shoes are trashed. They are pictured above. I like them. =-) I also got a pair of Nike flip flops because I finally threw away my flip flops last Fall. They were all compressed from my fat ass walking on them especially considering I wore them through almost an entire pregnancy. LOL!

Today's food is good. I'm at 20 points, I'm contemplating a 2 point ice cream sandwhich and then I'll be at 22 which is only 2 points low for the day. I can hang with that.

Off to veg for a bit before reading a book and heading to bed!

Long Time no Blog

I'm still doing fine with all of this. This morning I weighed myself and I was 188.4. That is down 3 pounds from last Monday and puts me at a total of 10 pounds lost since I started this three weeks ago! Yay!

I dunno why I haven't blogged. Haven't had much to say, I guess.

It's been 3 weeks since I started this and I haven't done any exercise, so I decided it was time to put exercise into the gameplan. I joined Curves today. They are doing a 30 day fitness study so it was 30 dollars for 30 days and by joining the study I commit to exercising 3x a week and eating right for the next 30 days. I will decide if I want to join Curves officially after the 30 days are up. I start tomorrow morning with the girl showing me how to do all the exercises and stuff.

They did my measurements and body fat percentage. They are about what I expected and what I've seen in the past so it wasn't any kind of huge shocker. I'll post all that here later, probably tomorrow. It will be nice to see them get smaller in the next 30 days though. So I'm excited about that.

My point total got knocked down from 25 to 24 due to my weight loss. I'm not exceptionally worried about it because usually I'm a bit lower on points than I "should" be; however, I ate all 24 points today. My husband made this yummy dinner but it has an assload of cheese on it so that alone was 6.5 points. But that's ok, I ate 24 points and I'm done for the day.

I will definitely blog tomorrow and let you know how I enjoyed curves.

*grumbles*

I don't know what's up with me but I'm starving today. I had my usual breakfast and a decent, albeit low point lunch, but by dinner I was just STARVED. I had 2 pieces of pizza and walked away but my stomach was still grumbling and I caved and had 2 more pieces. And believe it or not, my stomach is still grumbling but I'm done for the night. Having to be a Den Leader for Cub Scouts must really wear me out. LOL

So today certainly wasn't a day where I had to whine about not eating enough. I had 31.5 points today which is 6.5 points too high for the day. So I'll probably be retaining a bit of water for a few days -- especially after all that pizza.

I'm also really tired tonight. It's 10pm and I'm ready to go to bed. I think I'll call it an early night and try to get some sleep. I haven't been sleeping well lately so maybe that's part of it, I don't know.

Wiiiiiii-ry tired!

Wii boxing = hellish workout. But I LOVE it. I Wii boxed for about half an hour this evening and by the time I was done I was pouring sweat. Of course, it didn't help that it was 80 degrees in my house to begin with. It felt really good to get moving and have a bit of exercise. I know I need to do that more often.

My email list I run on yahoo is having a second round of a "Biggest Loser" competition and I decided to join up again. So now it's no longer a secret that I'm trying to lose weight. I told one of my friends about this blog but I'm not really sure I will tell the others. For some reason it doesn't bother me to have her read the thoughts but I don't really think that anyone else would find them interesting.

I ate 17 points today instead of the 25 I'm supposed to. I really am way too hung up on this points thing. I really should just stop obsessing but everyone says if you don't eat enough points you'll put your body into starvation mode and blah blah blah blah. The last thing I want is to hit a plateau and not be able to get anywhere near goal. I already had enough of that frustration since January with eating right and exercising. I wonder if I wasn't eating enough and the exercise added too much of a calorie deficit and my body went "Woah! Not cool!" Or I'm just broken. I'll pick option #2.

So, Wii exericse + decent food consumption = pretty good day.

Back to my IM'ing and then off to bed!

191.4!

Down 2 more pounds this week. I started this on April 17th at 198.5 and less than 3 weeks later I'm down 7.1 pounds. Not too shabby! I'm going to weigh again on Thursday just to see what my official 3 week status is. I guess I should have just had all my weigh-in's be on Thursday's but that's ok. I will probably also do a weigh-in on the 17th of each month regardless of what day of the week it is just to see the monthly breakdown. I do hit the scale too much but I don't really care. I like having the progress showing on the scale and I like being accountable. If I skip the scale for too long I end up slacking. Although, this time, I haven't started slacking yet. Maybe this time is an actual change for the long-haul.

I haven't started exercising officially yet, I know I should but I just want to take things slowly. The Wii Fit comes out on May 21st (I think?) and I will use that so I might just wait and see how things go the next 2 weeks without the exercise. Plus, I'm constantly hiking all over campus so it's not like I'm sitting on my butt all day. In fact, these days, I rarely sit down at all.

Ok tired and off to bed!

Gah, I keep forgetting!

I keep forgetting to write in this blog because I've been on such a kick writing for my regular blog.

I totally messed up the whole "I'll post every day for 3 months" thing but oh well. I think it's more important that I actually stick to the diet for 3 months than it is that I post every day.

So anyways, 2 more days of sticking with the points. I cooked dinner tonight, made stuffed portabello mushrooms with spinach and carrots so I got in some good veggies. Yum!

I'm torn on whether or not to keep going with the WW thing. I get very frustrated that I'm not eating "enough" when I'm eating quite a bit. It's not my fault that when I'm not wolfing down junk food and I actually eat a well balanced vegetarian diet that I can't seem to eat enough calories to make WW happy and I'm tired of feeling like I'm doing something "wrong" because I'm pretty constantly 3-4 points too low for a day.

I'm not going to quit now because I paid for 3 months but at this point I'm not sure I'll make it all 3 months if I'm constantly having the computer yell at me. LOL!

Ok I'm distracted so off to chat on IM.

Early Post Tonight

I didn't post last night because I was tired and my husband had the day off so I spent most of the day with him. It was a bad day though food wise. I really really fucked up. I started off strong and then we got to playing the Wii and were just hanging out together and my old habits kicked in and I downed about half a bag of cheetos and a 20 ounce Coke. I knew what I was doing, but I didn't stop. *sigh* But that's ok, I'm back on track today and I'm not going to kick myself in the ass too long about that slip up. Even though I really want to. I mean I'm not going to be a MILF if I'm sitting around eating cheetos and downing bottles of coke every day. But sometimes I feel so far from the goal that it feels like screw it because I day of cheetos and coke isn't going to make a damn difference. I know that's wrong, but at the same time, eh... I feel so jabba the hut that I don't even care.

Today is an early post because Scrubs is on tonight and so is LOST. I *love* LOST.

I've done well on the food today. I didn't do any "formal" exercise but I was so busy at work that I literally never sat down and I was hiking all over campus. I lost my badge to get into the clean room so I had to go track down the guy to get me a knew one. Then I had to go back to the other side of campus to hit an ATM since they charge you for losing it. Then back to the guy to pick up the new badge. Then back to the other side of campus where my building is. Then I stood in the lab all day and worked on "stuff". After that, I got home and my son wanted to play Wii together so I'm sitting down, for the first time today, right now. It's exhausting but I feel good at the same time.

I have had only used 17 points today because of being busy... I didn't have time to have an afternoon snack. But I plan to eat a little dessert while watching Scrubs (or LOST haven't decided) so I'll be around 20 for the day when I'm done.

One thing I noticed that I'm having a hard time doing is getting in enough vegetables. I know that sounds totally bizarre because I'm a vegetarian but I'm not eating many vegetables lately. I'll do fruit, no problem, but for some odd reason I'm not eating many veggies lately. I think I need to start cooking more often from scratch again because then I do pretty well with the veggies. But I've been so busy at work that I've been relying on eating things like Smart Ones and Lean Cuisine which are just so full of garbage. For an organic crunchy person, I'm eating a bunch of shitty processed food lately. I really need to knock that off.

I think I'll make a menu again and go shopping on Saturday to get everything I need to cook dinner every night of the week. Wednesday is Scouts and we don't get out of that until 7:30ish so I'll allow myself a Smart Ones that night, but other than that, I think my goal will be to cook dinner (or have leftovers) every night this week.

Ok off to do a few things before Scrubs starts!